Since the 90s, overseas singer Randy has been famous for the song “It” composed by famous singer Che Linh. The lyrics: “Mom passed away when he was still young. A bowl of rice at night, but his heart was not full. A life of hunger and poverty. Who would give me shelter? A series of dark and lonely days…” has cut into the hearts of many music lovers, sympathizing with the fate of orphans. That song has been like the voice of singer Randy for many years because he himself lost his mother when he was a child.
Over the past few decades, as he grew up and became aware of his identity, Randy continued to return to Vietnam to look for his mother. His longing for his mother's love and to see her again grew stronger as he realized that his mother was getting older and he was also getting older.
Dan Viet reporter once witnessed singer Randy choking up when talking about his mother the first time he returned to the Sacred Heart Orphanage in Da Nang to find some little information about his origins in order to find clues about his mother. However, after more than 20 years, Randy still has not found his mother.
This time, in a hasty conversation with PV Dan Viet , Randy no longer cried when talking about his mother, but deep in his heart, he still had the desire to see his mother again. It seemed that after going through many storms and sorrows in life... Randy did not allow himself to be weak anymore. Or maybe he was afraid that if his mother saw him like that, she would be even more sad and worried...
Singer Randy in his youth. Photo: FBNV
In recent years, singer Randy has often been invited to perform in Vu Lan programs. How do you feel when singing about your father and mother in programs like this?
– Every year, when Vu Lan season comes, my emotions are very intense. Because, from the time I grew up until now, more than 50 years have passed but I have never once met my mother, or called her mother. For decades, I have been searching for information about my mother but have not found any.
Therefore, every time I am invited to sing about my mother in Vu Lan programs, I am very moved. I feel like I put all my longing into each song. And I also put all the things I want to say to my mother into the song. Every time I sing about my mother, I feel like I am confiding in her and lighting up the hope that "whether she is still here or not, she will always follow every step of my life".
Is there any sadness in those lyrics for the fate of a child who lost his mother, searching for half his life but still hasn't found her?
– Yes, there is a heavy sadness for the fate of a child who has been separated from his father and mother since childhood. There is nothing more miserable than losing a father and mother in this world. In the past, there was a folk saying “bewildered like a chicken lost its mother”, I had to live in that “bewildered” state for so many years. However, besides that, I was also somewhat comforted by the fact that beside me there were many mothers who sympathized with my music and my situation.
Singer Randy was emotional when singing about his mother in the program "Grateful for Birth 2024". Photo: Organizing Committee
Up to now, how many songs have you composed about mothers?
– Up to now, I have written over 20 songs about mothers. If I were to write a song with a different title, it would still be related to mothers. That is, I mainly compose about 3 topics: Homeland, Family and Mother. For example, I wrote the song “How old is our love” but it still has lyrics related to mothers such as: Mother and father love us with many hardships and difficulties… Receive from me deep gratitude. Live happily and healthily with children and grandchildren. I will remember the gratitude of parents to my heart . That means no matter what topic I write about, the image of mother will always be vague or dense in that song.
Which of these songs makes you feel the most satisfied and emotional every time you sing it?
– Perhaps, the song I like the most and feel the most emotional when singing is “Mother”. The song has lines that make many people cry as soon as they hear me sing: Mother left when I was still young. I don’t know where she is now. Alone and lost, no one loves or cares for me. Carrying so many hardships alone . Later, I also wrote a number of songs about mothers, but none of them moved me as much as “Mother”.
The song “Mother” was composed and performed by singer Randy. (Source: YouTube singer Randy)
For many years, he has been searching for his mother. There were times when he thought he had found her… but then he didn’t. After each time, did he feel discouraged or discouraged?
– I certainly don’t get discouraged because my desire to see my mother overwhelms everything. I only fear one thing, my mother’s time is running out. I am 55 years old this year and my mother must be over 70 years old. My mother’s time is getting shorter, the opportunities for me to see her are also getting less and less, so I always try to find her. I am not afraid of hardship, not afraid of wasting time and money, I am only afraid that if I don’t find my mother, I will never have the chance to see her again in this life.
Singer Randy backstage at a music show about Vu Lan filial piety. Photo: HTLong
I wrote a song “Mother in my heart” to comfort myself that, whether my mother is still in this world or has gone to some faraway land, in my heart there is always love for her. Her image may not be clear or faint, but my love for her is always strong and warm.
There is a song I wrote about my mother with the general idea that, mother, don't worry, live happily. Now that I'm grown up, I can take care of myself, mother, don't worry too much. I wrote this song with the thought that maybe now my mother has another family, there are many reasons that prevent her from coming out to acknowledge me... but that doesn't mean I'm angry with her, I will sympathize with her, I won't blame her.
Meaning you ever thought that maybe your mother had some reason why she didn't want to accept you?
– That is still a big question for me. Maybe, that day, my mother suddenly passed away without having time to tell the story of having a child like me. Life is inherently unpredictable, anything can happen. If I think about my mother, I will think of the best, most positive things and not blame her. Even if the truth is that my mother is still alive and does not want to accept me, I will never blame her.
In fact, there are babies who are abandoned by their mothers at the temple gate or on the street right after birth. I am much luckier because my mother knew she could not take care of me and raise me, so she sent me to an orphanage so that I could be cared for and given a warm bed. That alone is enough for me to be grateful to my mother for the rest of my life and not allow myself to blame her.
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